Guilt
Guilt is ripping me apart from my insides,
Yet I have never known how it truly felt before.
Recklessness was always a part of me.
I know I have hurt you with my actions.
Yet I must let you know,
Before you I was so wrapped up in myself,
I was so wrapped up in solemnly surviving,
Before you I have never felt quilt.
I know my action must have consequences,
But I never expected to hurt you in the process.
I'm truly sorry for putting you through what I have put you through.
And I know my pretty words and empty promises won't take away your pain.
Or the guilt that's eating at my bones.
I just truly hope one day you can forgive me for the kind of person we grew up to be.
And I know you know as well as I do that, I'm only young and learning how to live.
Yet this self-destructiveness feels too close at home,
And faith has slipped out of under me once again.