Torn apart lilies
How could I ever look you in the eyes again?
Because apparently, I destroy everything worthwhile in my life.
It seems I want to pluck apart lilies,
And step on roses.
And tear everything up from its roots.
I wanted to keep your boundaries,
So why couldn't I?
Why must I destroy everything I touch?
Once a lily flourishes within me
I must deprive it from water and light,
The way I must deprive my body from sleep and food.
I watch the lily wilt with a half-smile on my face.
I'm sick.
why couldn't I let one good thing stay in my life?
Why didn't I hold that lily gently and protected it from my own demons?
Why must I destroy everything I touch?